Wednesday, January 29, 2014


i guess it all started out pretty harmlessly
i was just getting to know you,
and you were just getting to know me

how did we get here baby?
i miss these lips i've never kissed -
when did it all get so crazy?

then things began to get a little heavy
i miss you, and i wish you were here
the words we exchanged had me feeling uneasy

how did we get here baby?
i long to be in arms i've never held -
when did it all get so crazy?

one night after too much to drink, you finally said it
hesitantly.. as if you were trying to warn me
that if we were to meet and fall in love, i would surely regret it

how did we get here baby?
i need to hear your voice -
when did it all get so crazy?



"i love you. ...
being drunk is real, you should get your rest, love."

missing

My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time, I don't feel the same
My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time


Will you miss me? 

(How did I? How did ? How did I? Oh)
When there's nothing to see? 

(How did I? How did ? How did I? Oh)
Tell me, how did this come to be? 

(How did I? How did ? How did I? Oh)

And now there's no hope for you and me


My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time, I don't feel the same
My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time


Do you still believe? 

In you and me? 
Are we all we could be?
Is it meant to be?

My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time, I don't feel the same
My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time
My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

a strange relationship


where is my love

where are you love?
don't you miss me too
it's been two days
and i haven't stopped thinking of you

moonchild

if they ask for me
tell them i am over the moon
let their wide eyes wonder where i escaped to
this time around
it will all be different
when i return
i will know..
have a sense of whole

may they look up at the night sky and think of me
close their eyes and dream of me
sailing away into outer space
hidden and away

wearing all-black
the girl on the moon

missed calls

it rings
and my heart drops
to the pit of my stomach-
i catch my breath
and take a glance

only to be disappointed again

why is it you do this to me?
didn't you mean all those words you wrote to me?
weren't those i love you's true?

tell me now so that i may walk away
with my heart in two
at the least, you taught me to feel
something i never knew
unfamiliar, but i tried to embraced it

you taught me to be a little softer
open my heart a little wider
embrace your so called truths

only beautiful lies

Monday, January 27, 2014

i know what i need to do
cut you

but the words you said to me
ring clearly
and somewhere inside of me
knows you care deeply

but it's not enough

because you're not here
i'm not there
and even if we were

...
who knows
IT'S ONE OF THOSE DAYS..
I WOKE UP FEELING LIKE I CAN'T FEEL THIS WAY ANYMORE
CHECKING MY PHONE WHEN I ALREADY KNOW

MY EYES SLOWLY OPEN AND THE FIRST THING I WANT IS YOU
I DON'T MEAN TO, BUT I DO.

HOW DID WE GET HERE?

I REMEMBER WHEN MORNINGS MEANT WARMTH IN MY CHEST,
STRETCHING TO THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE
AND NOW THEY'RE REPLACED WITH A FEELING I DON'T RECOGNIZE
ONE I CAN'T SHAKE
A HOLE IN MY CHEST WHEN I WAKE
AS IF I AM EMPTY
WITHOUT YOU

I'M SORRY. I MADE A MISTAKE
IN GIVING YOU TOO MUCH OF ME..

WHAT IS THIS FEELING
AFTER TRYING TO STOP MYSELF FROM 'BEING A LITTLE SOFTER' -
SOMETHING I'VE BEEN TOLD I NEED TO DO
MY HARD HEART WENT SOFT AT THE MERCY OF YOUR WORDS
THOSE BEAUTIFUL LIES

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME

MY GRANDPA USED TO ALWAYS SAY, 
"THE ONLY WAY IT'LL WORK IS IF YOU LOVE HIM A LITTLE LESS THAN HE LOVES YOU"
SO WHAT DO I DO..
WHEN I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU.